and i'll walk a step behind, in the shadows so you'll shine.

OMG im sooo blesssed like you have noooo idea! I deserve none of it! God is so amazing! life is so amazing! I love everything and everyone...AND I MEAN THAT! i think i will even go as far to say as peas, nasty peas are a blessing even though i will NEVVER eat them because in my opinion they are GROSS but thats not the point im just sayin, we choose to be happy or be sad we choose to run with life and enjoy the good and the bad learn from our mistakes or cry about them, we push through, we suceed we fail, either way God loves us and life is beautiful,im so glad its no perfect i sooo appreciate chaos, i soo appreciate surprises, i totally appreciate mystery. My life is such an interesting story to me, full of heartache, full of love, full of pain, full of regret, full of mercy and grace, full of surprises, full of every emotion, and so is everyones story, ITS AMAZING...

I have made mistakes...i totally act without thinking, i have hurt people i have regrets but i wouldn't change anything, its who i am...I LOVE MY LIFE! everything the good and the bad has made me exactly who i am today! I just can't wait to see what keeps happening in my life! =]

well i was planning on going to bed like 3 hours ago but just had such an interesting and awesome conversation, put me in an even better mood than i was before...beside the fact of now im utterly exhausted...and i have to be up in less than 4 hours...anyways good night people...GOd is SOOOO STINKING GOOOD!

4 pairs of shoes a great dress and some dress pants!

oooof...wow...blah...time for sleep!

k so i want these get me them and i will loooove you forever! i promise!

anyways test is on wednesday @ 4 pray for me!!!! and then i will be gettin off on thursday early since in a way i guess i will be "working late wednesday" lol i love my job it stinkin rocks besides this test...if you have ever taken your property and casualty test for insurance you know what im talking about...when i went to go take the test they told me my ring was to big and asked that i leave it in the locker...i thought this was hilllarious! anyways....sooo i had an awesome birthday and feel like i totally gained about 20 lbs lol...but ya anyways found a pretty sweeet mexican place in gr thank you jen! =] el burrito! so far its the best anyone has to offer around her i most def can't wait to go and visit houston because i will be having me some don'keys! if you haven't had it you haven't lived and then i will be going and gettin me some chuys awwww im in love with the creamy jalapeño dip its AMAZING!


sooo im soooo looking forward to this month...for a couple of reasons....1. once this test is out of the way i will have sooo much TIME! 2. lady antebellum is coming up, me and my jen boo will being going! EKKK! and by the very end of this month 3. i will be gettin a car...yess this will mean sayin good-bye to my big beast of a truck...and i will miss her but i won't miss her obesity of gas! but she did get me through the winter quite well and i now can park a truck better than could before...i won't go as far to say as i can now park a truck....lol still a work in progress maybe i will get it down in the last month or so...

anyways also this month i will be going to aquire the fire which will be sweet and my boo is going with me...so i will have jenn boo and tracy! eeeek! love!

ohhhhh and let me just say im soooo stinkin excited about life right now! life is interesting the way it works...it just blows my mind! =] i know no matter what happens i will be ok and i know im right where im suppose to be...besides the fact of i wasn't meant to be outside in cold weather...but other than that everything is perfect! lol...k bye! dont' forget those shoes up there at the top! I WANT!

boys with nice bodies make me happy...shoes make me happier, the end.

follow ya heart fooool!

Always with any decision you make, follow your heart, your heart doesn't lie and speaks loudly if you listen. Always go after your dreams, there isn't one thing in this world that someone can not achieve it they want it. God has given everyone the tools in this world to succeed and be the best at whatever it is that you do. Take advantage of that, he wants you too. Don't wait for a handout, or you will never learn anything. Enjoy everything you are given, just be happy, life is too short to worry about the things...appreciate the little things in life.

Life is about chances and doors that open and close...if you are listening and paying attention to life it will blow you away. In the past like 3 weeks i have realized things about myself and have become a better person.

In the past week, i have been soooo stinkin blessed. Last Thursday I got a call tellin me i should send my resume in to someone that worked at foremost, so i did thinking nothing would happen, or if it did it would be down the road, well that night while at work i got a call from a guy in cali to do a phone interview, it went great and he set up a time for me to go in Friday, the next morning to take a test and if i passed I would interview 2 of the supervisors for my position. SOOOOO i passed the test and interview went great, Got a phone call that night but i was at work so i missed the call, called in the next morning and they offered me the position. One thing that they do when they hire you is give you all the supplies you need and classes for 2 weeks to get your licensing in insurance. A week before all of this happened i decided i was going to save up some money so i could do this anyways...now I am getting payed to do somthing i want to do. Its a GREAT feeling and i work for an amazing company. Patience and drive pays off and makes it feel great when you achieve somthing great, I am SOOOO stinkin BLESSED BABY! And just want to say thank you to anyone that has ever told me to always strive to be better than what i achieve. And I know i can do anything i set my mind too. So I have a favor if you are reading this and you are a PRAY-er please pray for me and the test that i have to take on friday. I am studying like crazy...I have the day off today and I will be studying the entire day. I will study until my eyes bleed and my hand feels like its going to fall off and there is no possible way i could cram anymore information into my head.


Ok and seriously let me say i have the best family in the world...we are soooo close...we may fight and have our issues but we love each other more than you love your family...haha ok well idk but im just saying. We have been through a lot and pulled out of a lot of things and its a great feeling to overcome things and forgive things, and be forgiven of things i mean truly forgiven, to not be judged on how you feel even if they don't get it they respect it. I LOVE MY FAMILY...idk what i would do without them, and im not just talking about my parents...when my parents are no longer, me and my 3 lovely little brothers will be just as close as we are know. I think they are all great and they all make me sooo happy and feel sooo loved! and thats all i need in life is to soak in the love given to me by those that i love.


IM JUST A HAPPY GIRL! =] ok and the hanger is by FAR my favorite store! Its great you want to know why...well let me tell you...they carry few of the same items so if you get something its original, which is awesome cuz i love things that are unique. There are 2 right now. One in hastings and one in lowell. The owner usually works out at hastings and Jessica (who makes a lot of the jewelry you will see there) works in lowell, they give great advice and you want everything you see and try on. They have GREAT accessories! So there is my shout out to the hanger! if you haven't gone you should go check it out =]





IM JUSSST SAYYYIN FOOOOL!

haha, don't be a hater life is tooooo SHORT! K bye.

my head is going insane...so glad this week is almost over!

"nobody in his right mind would've left her."

eeek these shoes are A-MAZING! $80 which isn't bad...i wouldn't be able to wear them til the snow goes away but im in love with them! they have enough support on the top i can already tell it would be a comfortable heel! they are beautiful and i want them to be MINE!

anyways so been a while since i've been on here i have been wanting to sooo bad but i have been so busy with the 2 jobs...im OOOOOOBER excited though because tomorrow i will be getting 3 pay checks (well now today...) and for all of my hard work i've been putting in im treatin myself to gettin' my nails done...full set! OPI bubble bath PLEASE! & thank you! and the rest of 2 of those checks is goin' into a separate account to be set back for an emergency fund...and then i also will be babysittin' this weekend so that will be more money too and then im soooooo looking forward to my sat. either salsa dancin or gonna hang out with boo (my jen...haha) and then sOUPPPPA bowl is hear again...hopefully this one ends better than last year (margaritte....who by the way i will be missing dearly this weekend) me and maggie had a blast and then stupid BOYS ruined it! go figure. but this year there will be no boys to do that for me...soooo yay for that =]

V-DAY is coming up which also means my MARCUS is gonnna be 20 and i am sooooo bummmed i can't be there....swear to moses i will be when ya turn 21 ohhh yaaa buddy we gon' do it up big! =]




SOOO YYAAAA anyways! jen boo's birthday is coming up! 21! ohhh shooot! and i have another year to go boooo =[ oh well.

also i am totlally kickin my butt into shape or sooo i say...immma start eatin a little better this is day 3 without a sweet tea...mind you that i have been drinkin like at least a gallon a day! I MISS MY SWEET TEA! but once im in shape then i can have them every once and a while...i wannna lose 10 pounds...i like the curves of my body and finally don't look like a little girl anymore and i FINALLLY have butt so now i just wannna tone up and make everything tight! i started the better eatin this week and starting monday i am forcing myself to work out...it would be so much easier if it weren't so flippin cold to just go out and run but oh wells....im gonna do boxing and this work out video. and i have decided if i reach my goal im going ot reward myself with another tatoo...im pretty sure i know what i want but it will stay a secret until i get it and who know i might decide i don't want another tatoo so you may never know....welll anyways i soooo need to get some sleep for my exciting day tomorrow i sooooo can't wait! =] g'night!