Don't Fret Im Back!

ahhhh loooooooooovvvve!









...some of what im feeling right now...boys suck and they do nothing but complicate life...so that means im guessing that i still haven't found the right one because it shouldn't be like that...blah...ya heres what i think about that!!!


ok im really not that heartless...but anyways the most insane thing happened to me the other day when i was atf...and it was such a God thing...i was outside and kind of in a bad mood and just feeling let down and annoyed and ton of what i used to feel back when i was with my ex...but y'all know me...i was still in a good mood...anyways this guy in his 60's is passing by me and says helllo makes some small talk...i didn't feel like talking so i pulled my "my daddy's a pastor deal" because usually people judge me on that and think that i don't need to hear anything they have to say anyways...he started talking about his past relationships and i decided for once in my life just to listen...[crazy i know right] story goes on he was just telling me about girls he had been with and things that had been wrong...one of the relationships reminded me of me and jake the others reminded me of my little flings i guess you could say...then the last thing he said to me was "don't worry, you will find the right one" then he said well it was good talking to you and he walked away...

The timing on this was perfect! i always worry that im gonna be alone and in my life i have chosen the worst possible people or they go and change on me...as far as love goes...i haven't been loved by any boy or any man...its all been pretend and all revolved around the wrong things...my idea of what love is and what it is suppose to be has been me giving all of myself and losing myself and not getting anything in return and being walked all over...it ends...im done trying to make things work with anyone because it should never be that hard...the right person will come along...he will be a godly man, he will treat me how my daddy treats my mom or better...my family will love him and he will love my family and i his...if i don't have this then i don't want it...the world today has the wrong idea of love...its like we train for divorce...thats all relationships are anymore...IM DONE...seriously, im waiting and im trusting God and i will know when someone worth my time comes...because the right one will love God just as much as i do...this might sound lame to you and guess what i don't care because i will be happy no matter what =D

heeeellooo, jk i don't talk like that i talk like this Hiiiiiii

BOOO...im bored! break at work...welll tomorrow going to lansing as soon as i get out...i have to pack tonight and then im gonna meet jen at mi casa as soon as i get out...run to the bank and we will be on our way to ATF whoooo! but ya anyways...ok soooooo it will be fun...so another road trip with jen boo...whoooo! next week im going to start gettin on the walking machine thingy during my lunches instead of eating and then im gonna run on the trails when i get off work it will be awesome...but anyhoooo....ya i need to get on that finn finn baby haha...not really i prolly shouldn't but i want to because i would lose a LOT faster! but then i would prolly gain more even fast soooo and all i need to lose is 10 pounds and tone it up baby cuz guess what now i've got a butt! ooohhh shooot! anyways i have lots to do when i get off work...anyways im gonnna go now k bye!

I want you to faint. This is what you were meant for. None of the fools you've ever know have kissed you like this, have they?

So i went to go see gone with the wind because it was playin in theaters and i have a friend that is CRAZY about it...well i have to say it is one of my favorites...even though it is a 3-4 hour movie...I LOVED IT...it is one of the best love stories...its real...we hear all of the ones that are just lovely and turn out great but this one show you life just a little bit more...I freakin LOVE that movie...somebody buy it for me! ok and also on that subject i think someone should take me shopping for some more shoes and clothes...ok and im soooo bummed the hanger in lowell closed...but the one in hastings is still open AND there might be another one opening in GR...fingers are crossed!

mmk well back to work...

Great balls of fire. Don't bother me anymore, and don't call me sugar.

haha bye!

so im stuck in the elevator...

So on my lunch break and im kind of bored...so what do i do when im bored...make life interesting...i texted my mother and told her i was stuck in a elevator...haha so i will tell you how it plays out...she will believe anything...so here goes...=P i might see who else i could get to believe this...muahhHAHHAHAHAA(evil laugh) k bye!


4-28-2010

i wanted to put this on the same blog so here is how the lovely elevator trick played out ok...she totally bought it and so did a few others obviously...my mom made a post on fb and had about 20 comments on it and everyone was laughing about it and making jokes...not only did my mom post it on fb but she called kim, who works with me, to see if i was ok i guess well work got to my super's and so the story goes...im sittin in my class learning zurich and they come running in asking if we knew that i had been stuck in the elevator 2-3 hours...i txted my mother right away and told her it was a joke, so anyways now its just a little bit of a joke with some people at my work but it kinda backfired i guess...lol

sooo i have a stop that is like my place that i go to when i need to chill...its easy to go too yet no one goes there and its pretty, and quiet...and now that the weather is nice its seriously awesome...i will put a picture up of it later but it totally is just awesome and like 3 minutes from mi casa if i hit all the lights right....and i will not tell you how to get there unless you are special enough for me to take you with me...I LOVE IT! especially at sunset...sunrise is pretty too but sunset is perfect! =D anyways dang man i am super sore...and idk why...my arms feel like they want to fall off...ohhh kaaay sooo guess what! im going to see lady antebellum tomorrow with my jen booo I can't wait its gonnnna be SWEEEET! and then i've got a pretty busy day sunday...but chillin busy so its nice...ok but ya soooo i also am hopefully gettin rid of my awesome truck and gonna get a car since i spend like 300 easily in a month just on gas alone...my truck is
O B E S E
on gas...its sad because i love my truck! anyways JETS yum sooo i must go!

2010 Yamaha VMAX 1979cc V4 ahhh love!

2010 Yamaha VMAX 1979cc V4 = LOOOOOVE

I am dying for a bike! I WANT! I WANT! I WANT!

Anyways...soooo im super excited about a month ago i finally learned how to burn my own cds and download music...sooo yay for not having to have anyone do it for me anymore...but i made 3 new cds eeeeeek and i love them...i sooo could not sleep last night....but anyways...here is a new song i found and liked...hollla

The Mess I Made by Parachute

Should've kissed you there
I should've held your face
I should've watched those eyes
Instead of run in place
I should've called you out
I should've said your name
I should've turned around
I should've looked again

But oh, I'm staring at the mess I made
I'm staring at the mess I made
I'm staring at the mess I made
As you turn, you take your heart and walk away

Should've held my ground
I could've been redeemed
For every second chance
That changed its mind on me,
I should've spoken up
I should've proudly claimed
That oh my head's to blame
For all my hearts mistakes

But oh, I'm staring at the mess I made
I'm staring at the mess I made
I'm staring at the mess I made
As you turn, you take your heart and walk away

ohhh baby she did it....

ok sooo here is my license and i am now licensed in alll 50 states whoooaaah baby! =D super excited! Doing motorcycle licensing alll week long and loving it...i want a bike soooooo stinking bad! anyways...ya sooo i totally could not sleep last night...idk anyways i was just gonna put my license up there...holla back yo.