There is a hair in my life!

Take it out! Take it out!


Huff ok. Well I just don't know what you want and why do you have to make me feel like the asshole? Grrr I'm trying really hard not to make it work weather you mean to or not....ohh well on lunch think god for Friday this week has been rough but um through it...learned a lot and all came crashing down at once just needed to vent ad here it is. Anyways I'm ready to love again and find the right person and be open to giving someone a chance let me warn you I'm an open book that has little to no filter with my thoughts and frustration so If you don't love listening to the ramblings and non-sense of a woman I'm probably not your gal...jusst saying...i need someone who is interested with my thoughts...you don't like it go home! =] I say this for your own darn good. K i feel better! Now that I've vented some bye now! Mwah!

im back.

i have been busy and i have missed it!


my best friend and her 2 babies came in oh how i loooovvve them!


my sophie i love this little girl soo much!


and this is baby forst my favorite little man!

this be magrit! i have never been soooo atatched to little babies before but i really do love them like for real! and their mama is the ish-nit! i love her and sister low-lee is a saint i swear i miss them all so much! hopefully one day they won't be so far away and then i can hang out with them more and it will be SUPER!

anyways im really into lilly allen and thats whats playing on my ip-id right now....ohhhh yess and somthing that everyone should try im just saying it cuz im craving it right now super random but i really feel like a mountin dew float...don't knock it before you try it! =]





all new outfit...im wearing the top today with some jeans...but grey leggins my christmas gift from magrit...we had a late christmas lol from victori's secret "PINK" with a new purple top with a grey tank underneath from charlotte russe and some awesome grandma shoes from h&m that i got in chicago...loooovvve..looooove LOOOOVVVE it!

and let me just say i loooove chicago...if i knew the weather would not get cold there i would MOVE there and live there! buuuut oh well i know it does even though if i go to olivete i will be right by it so i might be moving close to there anyways for a bit...either way i want to move to some big city=] i looove the big cities...there is just something magical about them to me! =] i like small towns too but i deff miss the big city-ness!



ok there is what has been going on and i will be blogging blogging like writing and venting again very soon but this is whats been up...and let me just say i was soooo sad when i went home last night and my room was empty i hated it....me and magrit sat up everynight after the babies were asleep talking on top of my steps just talking and venting i seriously miss her she is amazing for real! i have missed her so much and now i miss her and low-lee even more! next trip to texas NEW YEARS!!!

this book is just about alll done and has everything i have felt and been inspired by and loved! this book explains me to my very core! i love it!





ok PLEEAAAASSSE look at this...funny stuff man...the dash DON'T BE SILENT!




anyways i am a happy girl due to getting off and saturday and now im working on gettin tuesday off so i can go and take them to the airport...fingers crossed and it will make for a loveley 4 DAY WEEEEKEND...and i will be in heaven...i will have to work next sat if im off tuesday but i don't care because i miss my magrit! right now im wanting a massage really badly! come give me one PLEASE and THANK YOU! "lunch" is in 15 minutes and im ready for a break im going to start reading a book during that time called the shack...hopefully it doesn't suck trust i will let you know...i read a book a while back somthing...ummm i think it was called in the shades of blue...it was a lovely book and i felt like a lot of me related to one of the characters, my mom told me i should read it im assuming she thought i related to her too..lol...anyways i absolutley loooovvved the book until the end because the poor girl that i relate to just ends up being ok but single and alone and she is happy but still have been through soo much and the guy goes back and gets married to another woman even though he put her through hell...someone else gets him now that he is nice and sweet and the book totally teased you and i seriously thought he was gonna come and give her everything she deserved instead she is stuck with a guy that she doesn't feel anything for...STORY OF MY LIFE...lol thanks mom i told her and we laughed about it...hopefully this book isn't like that book or i will be mad because i really don't like to read...so im hopeing for the best! =D anyways im offf!

Men have called me mad; but the question is not yet settled, whether madness is or is not the loftiest intelligence

having one of those nights where i totally can't sleep and wish i could....my brain is going crazy and now im wondering how in the heck im going to function tomorrow. because i am wide awake!

trust is a major issue of mine and im insanley confused and torn right now and pissed...ok boys that have girlfriends and want to tell me you care about me ohhh so freakin much and emotionally cheat on her and try to physically well excuse me that this isn't very lady like but you can go choke on a dick, ok thank you...sseecondly...when you are asking someone to do a favor for you...how dare you be rude to them? and thirdly now im done whine-ing and wasting my thoughts on you.


happier things...margaritte forst sophie and lola will all be here in less than a week...still trying to get off on saturday so far no luck at all...it is labor day weekend i don't blame them a darn bit but i have my fingers crossed that someone will want to swap...ok i will do more later =] goodnight

GPS, nearest cliff please =]

OMG, we won't even go there but right now i think it would just make my day =] lol

anyways listening to music and im super excited...my best fraaann from texas and her babies will be here next saturday and i right now am currently working on getting it off so i can go chill in chicago with them...we will see i have my fingers crossed! we will see and it will make my day and ijust might put the cliff on hold...lol...mmk im starving and lunch needs to hurry up! k bye!

hyper happpy right now....

ahhh!!! soo i have 13 minutes and i am on my way home and it is another LOVELY weekend!!! freakin-tastic...i can't wait cuz i have talked to a bunch of cranky mc-crankersons today. and i am just ready to chill and tomorrow i am SLEEEPING IN...don't bother callin me tomorrow...i will calll you when i wake up just a simple text will do or leave vm but im putting my phone in a different room than me and making sure not an inch of sunshine will shine in my room so i sleep AS LONG AS MY BODY needs! and then im taking it easey...tonight im going to have a daddy daughter date and im super excited! wooot wooot! and then next week will be here and if margaritte and lola are coming and bring my babies! eeeeeeeeek! sooo let me just say i can't freakin wait...i miss my magrit! chunk deuces nuckka.

always play with passion no matter what the game.

helllo GOOOOOD DAY SIR! =D

got waken up at freakin 4:30 this morning...thank you budah! actually i didn't mind it has kind of made my day...long serious conversations make me happy and sometimes its just what i need.

and i haven't felt this much passion and excitment in my life in a long time...actually never this much for myself for my future for everything...even when life is crazy and not where you want it you can find happiness..what i mean by my life not being where i want is basically i still have a lot of goals to acheive and some of them figuring out how and some of them conflict with my other dreams...but at the same time im not really worried how things play out because i know no matter what it will be exactly what i need and want.

ohhhh myyy sadddnesss! this weather SUCKS! let me just tell you winter is around the corner...the only thing pleasant about that is christmas...but i feel the summer coming to an end...i slept with my windows open last night...i woke up this morning FREEEEEZZING because it was so cold out...how sad! i really can't stand being cold...oooooooo-fuuuuuuuu! oh well here we go again...however with the way life has been flying by im sure summer of 2011 will be here before we know it...=]

and the great thing about that summer is that i will be 21! aaazzzzam! so i am dreaming of next summer...and completley curious...where will i be and what will i be doing and what else will i have acheived a year from now...some of my goals:

1.Chicago or Houston
2.100% independance
3. College
4. Car to replace my truck
5. Completley out of debt
6. Learn how to speak spanish

Those are all my big goals...really the car one isn't because that one is almost out of the way but that will save me a TON of money! =]


smaller goals or things i would like to do...

learn how to play the violin, learn the piano [like i mean be amazing at it, i know a little, your basics thats it] to one day own my own coffee shop or flower shop [only if i get married but if thats in my cards i want one started up way before i have kids so then i have my own thing but i can still have as much time with my kids as i want] if i live the single life forever then i want to run my own bussiness for interior design or like wedding planning or somthing fabulous like that...maybe even bigger like the ceo of a company...

a piece of advice that i think people my age don't understand...your name stands for A LOT! you CAN do whatever you want...you have to network your name...network yourself...you never know who you are talking to or meeting...always leave an impression, always soak in everything you can when a successful person is investing time and money into you...find out what they did to get there...use it where EVER you go..you WILL be amazing. and then when you reach your success share that with those that are just as willling to learn as you are...don't just wait for people to take you places...take yourself and climb the ladder of success its not over night...it takes time...it starts small and it will grow[unless you are just born into it, then be smart enough to keep it] anyways ya there is that =D





noooowww! just for fun


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