it's his all of it!

I choose God to run 100%, alll of it my life its his! 100% finally its his...im not in control...as hard as it is to let go of those few things i have been holding on to im doing it...=]




6/8

looking back on this...i try and convince myself and i really wonder when i will really ever be able to give it all to him.

ooops!

yesterday...i accidentially did not see a stop sign while driving...just as i noticed it...it was wayyyy to late to stop so i slammed on the gas...there was a huge semi...yes im in a truck but i would have been road kill...thank god he saw me because he slowed down...but if i would have stopped i would be dead or in some serious pain right now!

who does that....

want it, need it, bought it!

along with this fabulous top behold!






and i this one...i fell in love with the back of it! i love things that show my back...now i just need to work on a tan...








Anyways there you go...now i feel like i need some new SHOES! but ya...ok so last night i took caleb to meijers cuz we were gonna red box it...[and we did] but ya so we decided to walk around and shop a bit anyways he came across some machetes...and be being the lovley sister that i am told him he could get them...well anyways we are checking out and he doesn't have his new id yet well you had to show id to get them...it was like midnight so im sure this lady is thinking "what in the heck are they doing buying this, this late at night"

along with buying him the machetes also bought me and jen boo these silly little headband thingys for 4th of july and a tim mcgraw cd...can you say RANDOM...but the lady insisted way waY wAY WAY to many times that I had to be the one to swipe my card...lady i told ya once i told ya twice...how many stinkin times do i have to tell you...but it was hillarious prolly one of those had to be there moments but ya! we were dying...who does that! anyways im in between calls and about to go on my last break..holla back fools!

and you know that we're doomed my dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room...

So much has gone on in the past few weeks and I’ve been itching to blog somethin’ fierce.

For any of you that know me well enought to know what has been going on...this just in...Lauren has finally made up her mind(i think) and i think you will be pleased =D












Ok so i went "fishing" last saturday with my jen boo, mike, caleb and britten...which if you know me you know i always get started late...if you know my family you know this is the case for all of us, anyways so we decided to go to where the 2 rivers meet...ok...well...because it was flooded i guess we couldn't get out to where it was deep enough without standing in water....anyways to shorten up the story just a tad, we ended up walkin through water that was up to jen and i's chest holding our shirts up trying to keep them from gettin wet...it was a big disaster but a blast...somewhere in all of this craziness mike cut his thumb on a knife and poor jen boo we left earlier than the guys...well me and jen where leaving and gonna start wading back through the water...she slipped grabbed a tree branch and i don't even know how she avoided not getting her hair wet...well she had her phone on her and it was pretty much ruined =[ but all is well she has a new phone now...

then me and jen went and go cleaned up...i went to go get mike and my brothers towels and pick them back up and we chilled with my fam for a bit, ate pizza and headed over to tracy's to watch a movie...very eventfull day...well ok so i took mike home and on my way home 1-96 was closed so i was going in circles for like 20 min and then finally i gave up and drove straight for a bout 10 min so the gps would give me dif route took me like an hour to get home...I WAS SOO tired...but i had such a good day =]

Right now im bummed because its my brothers 18th and he is getting his first tattoo at the moment and im missing it but going to meet up with my fam and jen boo after i get off! sooo whooo! i will post pictures later...

oh yes and there will be pictures of the infamous breakfast you have all been hearing about! =0 for those of you who dont' know...it consisted of spaghetti, syrup, sprinkles, m&ms, skittles marshmellow yumminess and more and more it was nothing but a huge SUGAR RUSH baby! =]

Don't Fret Im Back!

ahhhh loooooooooovvvve!









...some of what im feeling right now...boys suck and they do nothing but complicate life...so that means im guessing that i still haven't found the right one because it shouldn't be like that...blah...ya heres what i think about that!!!


ok im really not that heartless...but anyways the most insane thing happened to me the other day when i was atf...and it was such a God thing...i was outside and kind of in a bad mood and just feeling let down and annoyed and ton of what i used to feel back when i was with my ex...but y'all know me...i was still in a good mood...anyways this guy in his 60's is passing by me and says helllo makes some small talk...i didn't feel like talking so i pulled my "my daddy's a pastor deal" because usually people judge me on that and think that i don't need to hear anything they have to say anyways...he started talking about his past relationships and i decided for once in my life just to listen...[crazy i know right] story goes on he was just telling me about girls he had been with and things that had been wrong...one of the relationships reminded me of me and jake the others reminded me of my little flings i guess you could say...then the last thing he said to me was "don't worry, you will find the right one" then he said well it was good talking to you and he walked away...

The timing on this was perfect! i always worry that im gonna be alone and in my life i have chosen the worst possible people or they go and change on me...as far as love goes...i haven't been loved by any boy or any man...its all been pretend and all revolved around the wrong things...my idea of what love is and what it is suppose to be has been me giving all of myself and losing myself and not getting anything in return and being walked all over...it ends...im done trying to make things work with anyone because it should never be that hard...the right person will come along...he will be a godly man, he will treat me how my daddy treats my mom or better...my family will love him and he will love my family and i his...if i don't have this then i don't want it...the world today has the wrong idea of love...its like we train for divorce...thats all relationships are anymore...IM DONE...seriously, im waiting and im trusting God and i will know when someone worth my time comes...because the right one will love God just as much as i do...this might sound lame to you and guess what i don't care because i will be happy no matter what =D