Maybe that's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano

welll helllo world, im back in michigan and missing texas like crazy! texas feels like home and i swear on my life i will be moving back...my goal: 1 year =]

Sometimes i just feel like there are things i need to do and i feel like its time i live on my on, and i mean on on my own. I have been thinking about a lot recently as far as who i am go. Going to houston i felt more like myself than i have in a long time. I didn't have to try to please anyone, I just did. It was like that when i was there too. Before i wasn't strong and confident though because of a lot of things but now I am...I am who i am...if you don't like it well then too darn back because i don't really care if you like me or don't this is who I am! I freakin love me! If you knew how long it had been since I have felt that you would understand. i think maybe the last time i felt this way was when i was 15 or 16 and those are the only years that i EVER felt that until now. of course when i was little i was happy, but i was too young to know anything.

I am ready to keep on whatever this is what im doing. People way not agree and people may not like it but i don't care. this is my life and im not living it for anyone else. In most of what i do i spend trying to please people...i love making people happy but when your taken so much from i think every once in a while i need to spoil me and im going too! You might think im too young but guess what ya I will struggle im sure of it...and its probably gonna be another hard life lesson i get to learn but honestly thats how i like to learn my lessons they stick and i can help someone someday...i can relate to people and i love...i can feel empathy...sometimes it sucks but its the only way i know how to love...i feel...i want to feel...any relationship i have i need to feel! its a need of mine. maybe thats wrong but if i don't feel somthing i can't pretend i can...and i can't dig for feelings for forever when there is nothing there and i can't ignore feelings that go deep...maybe im wrong and stupid for that but guess what again I don't care =] Im happy and thats all that matters...


I also want to tell you this too just because i struggle does not mean that i won't be successful the people that have gone farther in life most of them the amazing ones they struggle...im going to be all that i want to be and maybe even more.




Now I know we said things, did things that we didn't mean
And we fall back into the same patterns, same routine
But your temper's just as bad as mine is
You're the same as me
When it comes to love you're just as blinded
Baby, please come back
It wasn't you, baby it was me
Maybe our relationship isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is I love you too much to walk away though
Come inside, pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity in my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed I'll aim my fist at the drywall
Next time, there won't be no next time
I apologize even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to f*cking leave again
I'mma tie her to the bed and set the house on fire